Melissa leaves on Sunday, or thereabouts, like I said. I wonder what it says about me... the fact that I'm thinking of leaving of my own volition, whereas Melissa is being forced to leave and wants to stay. It's seems so selfish, somehow. And I feel guilty for having the option to stay, whereas she doesn't.
It's been a rough couple of days. We've both been trying to keep it together and stay strong. Naturally we've had our bad moments. Luckily, we had other PCVs around to get us through the first couple of days. I can't imagine if it were just the two of us. What a pity-party that would be! I'm trying to stay upbeat and look at the positive things. I'm wonering how long I'll be able to keep it up.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Oh Uganda!
December 17, 2008
Chaos
So it's been a crazy week so far. Car accident on Saturday. Christina leaving yesterday night. Courtney leaves on Thursday. Melissa has to pack up on Friday and flies out on Sunday. Me. I don't know what the hell I'm doing. lol Maybe I'll go back to site Friday, maybe not! It all depends on my stupid arm. *sigh* All I know that it'll be tough going back to site for so many different reasons. And it totally blows that Christina's gone for good now, and Melissa will also be gone. So now it's just me and the villagers. Yikes!
I'm not quite sure what the future holds for me right now. How I'll react once I get back to my lovely village. Maybe everything will be great. Or maybe I'll have a complete meltdown and beg Peace Corps to come back and get me. Maybe I'll think transport is easy and actually get to enjoy the holidays. Who knows. It'll be...interesting.
I know that the best way to get over a fear is to just face it head on. And I'm sure that's what I need to do. Putting it off isn't going to help, just make it even harder. But it's much easier said than done.
Chaos
So it's been a crazy week so far. Car accident on Saturday. Christina leaving yesterday night. Courtney leaves on Thursday. Melissa has to pack up on Friday and flies out on Sunday. Me. I don't know what the hell I'm doing. lol Maybe I'll go back to site Friday, maybe not! It all depends on my stupid arm. *sigh* All I know that it'll be tough going back to site for so many different reasons. And it totally blows that Christina's gone for good now, and Melissa will also be gone. So now it's just me and the villagers. Yikes!
I'm not quite sure what the future holds for me right now. How I'll react once I get back to my lovely village. Maybe everything will be great. Or maybe I'll have a complete meltdown and beg Peace Corps to come back and get me. Maybe I'll think transport is easy and actually get to enjoy the holidays. Who knows. It'll be...interesting.
I know that the best way to get over a fear is to just face it head on. And I'm sure that's what I need to do. Putting it off isn't going to help, just make it even harder. But it's much easier said than done.
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